Saturday, June 13, 2009

A whirlwind of crazy.

That's how I would describe the things going on here in my neck of the woods.
So much is going on in this head of mine I don't know what to do.
-I am graduating tomorrow, am I ready? Did I make the right choices? Did I pick the right college? The right major?
-I want to buy a Nikon, should I do it? Which one? Will it be worth it? Will I be able to shoot in manual?
-I've been offered a gallery for my photography, should I take it? Is it worth it?
-I kinda made a deal whereas now I am supposed to buy a bikini and wear it, can I do it? Should I try? I sure don't have the confidence for it- Do I need to just grow up and trust the people who say I will be fine wearing one? If I don't do it how can I just break that deal (and why did I make it in the first place? lol.)

And then I have my graduation to make stuff for (although its not for a little while yet), a bunch to go to (and I don't know where half of them are), Jodi and the girls are leaving for eight days (mind you, I have talked to her almost everyday for the past year) AND there is a fly in my room that is driving me nuts (but I am to lazy to get up and chase it with a flyswatter.)

And those are just a few of the thoughts that I am able to catch in the whirlwind of crazy that is my brain right now. In all retrospect, I know it can be worse. It certainly could be much worse. But for now its at a level that I am not sure if I can handle a much bigger whirlwind.

Anyways, on a lighter note, ball season has officially taken off! Actually it has been going on but I've been a bit of a slacker lately and for that I am sorry. Will a couple pictures make it better? Oh good I thought so ;)
Here is Mikayla playing at one of her games, she looks so little out there! I think she was waving at me from 1st base in this picture. She also usually only lasts a couple innings before shes just done with it and the poor thing gets sad when she doesn't get the ball!
This would be Taylor and I. This is what we do during Mikaylas games, lol. We take pictures, talk, play catch, and play those hand clap games that little kids play. Taylor plays coach pitch and I have been to her games but have not gotten any good pictures of her playing yet so I will have to get some and post them later.
Well, I think that's all I got to say for now. I apologize for the randomness and venting on this post but I just needed to put it out there, lol. And now I need to go and get ready for another grad party....


PS: I almost forgot to tell you, that our cable broke again (I seriously had nothing to do with it!) and now the cable guy has to come back again, I wonder if it will be the same one? ;)


  1. Dear Sister Dea, viewed your profile and works.Photographs are nice. I'm from Kerala, India living in a small village, interested in photography,writing and reading. I've just started blogging in my regional language. Your confusion over purchase of a Nikon DSLR is unnecessary, I think. I dont know the gravity of your needs. Neverthless, Imay suggest you had better buy D300 or D700. thank u....

  2. Wow, you do have a lot going on. I wish I could help you with some of your questions but those seem to be ones you need to make. Good luck with graduation!!!

  3. Balu puduppadi: I tried to comment on your blog but had difficulty leaving you one. So I hope that you come back and read this. Thank you for the comment, I am glad you like my photographs! And I certainly would love to buy a D300 or D700 but those are way out of my price range. I am debating between a D40 and D60, and what lenses and other accessories to look into.

  4. Congratulations, Dea!! Breathe deeply! God takes us where we are and lovingly guides us forward. You have not made decisions that can't be transitioned into different decisions later. Each step contributes something to the person you become. Fear not.

    As for the bikini, you could definitely wear a bikini. But you don't have to. And if it makes you uncomfortable, just don't.

    My favorite verse lately is Zephaniah 3:17. It says,

    The Lord your God is with you;
    he is mighty to save.
    He will take great delight in you,
    he will quiet you with his love,
    he will rejoice over you with singing.

    Blessings to you!

  5. You are too funny girlie!

    You just need to do it... you earned it... it is your graduation gift to yourself. Buy the Nikon and learn to shoot in Manual... if not you will still love it anyways. I got the D60 and love it and I hear the D90 is amazing...

    You are ready to graduate because would you really want to do another Senior year? You are ready... This is what you spent your life preparing for... and it isn't as bad as you think or hard... Just listen to your parents advice and you will be fine! :D

    And the bikini... I wore one when I was 7 months pregnant.... you can do it you skinny little thing! I have three kids and still wear one. You only have that body for so long and enjoy it! dont' be embarrassed. God gave you it and it is perfect! I know how you feel though because even when I am 105 lbs (even after having 3 kids) I still feel awkward... but who cares!

    Congrats on your graduation! It is going to be a memorable day that you will never forget. It won't be as fun as your wedding day.... but pretty close! Get lots of pictures!

  6. Dea, I've just seen today your reply in your own blog. Sorry for inconvenience. I think now you are graduating and must have bought a fine camera. How ever, the job like capturing the world with your 'third eye' is a fine thing.
    The pictures are with full of life..... if u want to contact please mail